Sinking In

Things seem to be sinking in, at least for Christine and me. The initial news was such a shock, and I had gotten used to Gretchen's absences, so it's weird to reconcile the fact that she's really gone this time. I won't get an email from her. She won't show up in a comment on my personal journal. She won't be making any trips back to visit. I'll never get an invitation to her wedding to Misha.

Christine and I have both been posting our crazy memories, which probably make no sense to anyone outside of a select few people. Some of the jokes were exclusive, between Christine and Gretchen, or between Gretchen and me, and they won't make sense to anyone at all. We've been listening to crazy amounts of Bonnie Tyler.

I've gotten some calls and emails over the past couple of weeks from all over the world and from right here in Philadelphia, so I know that people are visiting the page. I'm glad. I hope that it's helping you. And, it's for everyone, not just a few of us. If you're reading, and you want to comment or post, please do. It's a huge comfort to us when you share your memories and thoughts. It doesn't matter if we know you, or if you weren't friends of ours in high school. If you want to post, we would love to hear from you. Just email me (megan_m_young@hotmail.com) and I'll send you an invitation to join the blog.

Seriously, your posts really help me. Shannon's expressions of the future and regrets over things Gretchen will never see, Misha's sweet story of how they met, Dave's post which so perfectly defined spending time with Gretchen, Eve's beautiful poem that Gretchen would have loved, Gretchen's trip to the zoo with Julie, Amy's tribute, Rachel's pictures from high school, Meg's insight into her mindset and the fact that she was at peace with her decision... just knowing that you're out there and you knew her and you loved her and you're thinking about her. It really helps. Thanks, everybody.