Agnostic's Kaddish, for Gretchen by Eve

AGNOSTIC'S KADDISH

Some told me that you're in a place
Of gold and angel song
Some told me that you're paying now
For all that you did wrong
Some say you fell asleep into
A quiet and endless night
I only know you've gone away
And will not ever write

Some say you're watching over us
Protecting us from harm
Some say you're now a newborn
Sleeping in your mother's arms
Some tell me that you've gone to where
There is no death or pain
I only know that I will never
Hear your laugh again

Some say you're in a happy place
Of pretty girls and wine
Some say you've joined a sphere of light
Outside of space and time
Some talk of sure and certain hope
They know that it is so
I only know that you are gone
To where I cannot go